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Sometimes I still dream about the simpler days. I had a little wine this evening and, as I shook my head from side to side to gauge whether or not I was buzzed, I missed those fun times when I used to come home from a night at Stubrik's and buzz-blog on the brendoman page, several years ago.

I know we all have to grow up, and I know friendships always move into different directions, but I still think of all of my friends from those days fondly, and wish we could all still get together often and just have fun like we used to.

I miss Raggle Taggle Gypsy and Whiskey in the Jar. I miss our server, Dennis, who was the only person who knew how to make a proper Irish Mint; I still haven't figured out the perfect recipe. I miss those days when everyone posted on the Brendo bulletin boards all the time. I miss the Moz Board, where I made the most diverse group of friends I've ever known. I miss trips to Huntington Beach. I miss excursions with Gron. I miss hangouts with Brendan. I miss girls' nights. I miss David's hugs. I miss Crab Days in Fullerton. I miss Lost nights with the Neals. I miss my piano, even though I still have it. I miss shopping, movies, concerts, and just doing nothing with Erika. I miss the days when the word "Chaos" brought up good thoughts instead of sad ones.

I think buzz-blogging is more of a sad idea these days, because usually that means I'm at home alone with a laptop instead of coming home from a fun night out. We all go through different phases in life, but I still miss those days, and I wish I could zap over to different parts of the country to see my friends. Funny how a little buzz always gets me thinking on this.