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I Got The Pistol, So I Get The Pesos
So, today I could really only think about one thing, while I was at work, and that definately wasn't work. Not that I did horrible at work, but people noticed a difference. Maybe I am emotional, just not in the same way as people expect it to be or expect it should be.
But really why is it that I dwell so much time on that, I can't do anything about it. I wish I could, I wish I could communicate better, but now I feel really lonely in a house with six other people. Nine to ten o'clock is really going to suck with no one to really talk to. I mean, I at least had about 1 hour of conversation with an intelligent person. Oh well, I have to settle with staring at my computer screen now.
I guess I could try to heal in many different ways, but who knows. But still today is making my brain hurt, all morning I couldn't stop thinking about her. Why? I still have no idea if I even did anything or didn't do anything. So I was trying to think if I could have done something, or could do something. The answer is no. There are very few things that I can do, without making me expect more than I actually deserve to get, which is nothing. First off I could call her, but that is kind of weird, and what would I say, "Have you changed your mind?" No ok. Ugh. Plus it is kind of creepy and what restraining orders are made of. I could show up randomly at her house and give her something that is her, but that is a no go because she lives out of the way of anything, and I don't have anything of hers, plus there is always a threat of a restraining order. No I really can't do anything. So I can either sit around and wait, or I could just continue living, which is what I need to do.
Still not doing a very good job of expressing my emotions.
I started getting a little happier today when I thought of a certain song. No it isn't some sappy love song about how she will come back to me, or a song about getting on with life, no it is a song by the Refreshments, and that song would be Banditos.
And here it is.
So just how far down do you want to go
And we can talk it out over a cup of joe
And you can look deep into my eyes
Like I was a super-model
Uh huh
Well it’s you and me baby
No one else we can trust
We’ll say nuthin to no one
No how or we’ll bust
And never crack a smile or flinch or cry
For nobody
Uh huh
Well give your ID card to the border guard
Now your alias says you're Captain Jon Luke Picard
Of the United Federation of Planets
Cause he won’t speak english anyway
Everybody knows that the world is full of stupid people
So meet me at the mission at midnight
We’ll divvy up there
Everybody knows that the world is full of stupid people
Well I got the pistol
So I'll keep the pesos
Yeah and that seems fair
So put the sugar in the tank of the sheriff’s car
And slash the deputy’s tires
So they won’t get very far
When they finally get the word that there’s been a hold-up
Uh huh
And give your ID card to the border guard
Now your alias says you're Captain Jon Luke Picard
Of the United Federation of Planets
Cause he won’t speak english anyway
Everybody knows that the world is full of stupid people
So meet me at the mission at midnight
We'll divvy up there
And everybody knows that the world is full of stupid people
Well I got the pistol
So I'll keep the pesos
Yeah that seems fair
That seems fair
And that seems fair
Well that seems fair
Well give your ID card to the border guard
Now your alias says you're Captain Jon Luke Picard
Of the United Federation of Planets
Cause he won’t speak english anyway
Everybody knows that the world is full of stupid people
So meet me at the mission at midnight
We'll divvy up there
And everybody knows that the world is full of stupid people
Well I got the pistol
So I'll keep the pesos
Yeah that seems fair ....
There is nothing really in that song about anything that has to do with anything in my situation, but it made my smile a little bigger, when I sang it out loud a little.
I still felt really lonely though, because I don't feel connected to any of my co-workers, that will take time, but I can talk to them and be nice to them, but I don't fit in. I know it. About the only thing that comes out of their mouths all day is, "Playa Playa" or how they partied last night or all weekend. Which are the two things that I do the most, wait no, they aren't. Or they are married and have kids.
My head is starting to hurt, so this is really a good post or I have over analyzed everything and suck really bad. So it is just a little past nine now. Which use to be my favorite time of the day, now it is time to ponder shoulda/coulda/woulda. I need to move on, but moving on takes time. I need friends, so that I don't feel so lonely, but I don't do anything the normal person my age does. It is so hard.
So really, I will probably not be able to sleep very much tonight, cause I will be thinking a lot. And if ANYONE in the world out there knows my number call me tonight, or tomorow night around 8 CDT/6 PDT. I should be available.
23 comments
Hey I was looking for the song you posted the lyrics for. I downloaded it from LimeWire, thanks to you. Funny how things work out.
It is Saturday night and I am going to a Hallowe’en Party. But I am not happy…
I hope you are out of your “rut.” I will try to get ahold of you later, email me if you’d like.
Brian
Hi!
I found your blog the same way. I was looking for the name of that song and the artist. Thanks for the tip!
I’m really sorry things didn’t work out between you and your girlfriend. I know that it hurts, especially when you can’t figure out what went wrong.
:( It sounds like maybe you two had a communication gap? Did she know how important she was to you? I don’t know, I’m just guessing. When I have thought a guy wasn’t that into me, I just backed off.
I am currently working on a website (it isn’t finished yet) about mending your heart. There is a form for men and women. Hope to see you there! www.mendmyheart.com
BTW I am a 5′11″ woman constantly finding myself in the petite section of the store!
Thanks for the lyrics. I was trying to look up what that song was called. Now, not only do I know what it is called, but I actually know what they are saying. LOL!
I too heard that song the other day and always liked it. Googled to see what name of band and song was. Did not know alot of what they said but now I do thanks
I was looking for this song, the lyrics just sort of popped in my head out of nowhere and got a sudden craving for it. And lo and behold, the place I find the name of the song is on a blog that I could have written myself this morning. Last night I was just told no to man, just starting a new job and feel alone in a house full of roommates. Isn’t it ironic, don’t you think? Anyway, I’m jsut going to say keep on going on because life never ends with a no, it just really sucks for a while. And keep on rocking out the music, I find that never hurts.
hey…i was lookin for this song cuzthe guy i liked listens to it all the time wen we r in his car and i really liked it and i found this and i downloaded it on my comp usin limewire thanks so much….
WOW…I just found this the EXACT same way as the last person and did the EXACT same thing. I googled “I Got The Pistol, So I Get The Pesos” and your site came up. Anyways, thanks. I cant say I’m not happy cause I am, and I thank God for that. As far as the girlies go, dont go out of your way to get attention or avoid attention. If you want to get to know her outside the work place organize a GROUP activity…that way it wont be so potentially creepy for her. Random stop-bys are def a bad idea, and why do you know where she lives? There are lots of other girls out there….dont get too caught up on her. If all else fails try being an over-the-top sarcastic jerk…that usually works for me. Good luck and thanks,
-D
Hey Im from Ecuador and studied in 2005 and 2006 in US i ve been trying to find this song for a long time.
I cant contact some of my friends back then, specialy one Liesl, well any way.
Thanks, I dont really know what this site is about but thanks any way.
AD
Hey, I read your blog, I was just surfing around and found it, don’t ask me what I was surfing for because quite frankly I was trying to figure that out myself I just came across it. Well I don’t know the entire story of what happened, however…I understand completely I’ve been there. I don’t think there isn’t one person that hasn’t been there…the thing is you can beat yourself up about what happened…or trying to make something that you thought existed to exist only to find nothing but a second heart break. I know alot of people don’t believe in fate or what have you but my opinion is this…if things weren’t to turn out like they did…do you think you would be happier? I mean what if you discovered that she snores and drools all over her pillow and rolls in her sleep…wait that was my ex…anyways..lol trying to make ya smile man. Anyways if you ever wanna talk shoot me an email.
Later.
Holey crap dude you’ve somehow managed to help a lot of people find the name of that song… good work your doing a service…
Fuck it, I say drive by her house and knock on the door.
Hey hun,
You’re not alone. I have the same thought process when I think about stuff, the context of does it matter? (no) why am I dwelling on it? type thing.
I hope it all works out for you in the end. ^_^
I found this the way the majority of the posters here found it: looking up the Refreshments: Banditos song through Google
“everybody knows that the world is full of stupid people so you get pistols pesos sounds fair lyrics”
THANK YOU!!! i have been trying to remember the name of that song for months!!!!! it is downloading as we speak!!!!
Funny… Most people on here looked up I got the pistol, so out with the pesos (that’s my version anyway). And for some reason apparently this is a common them when guys are dealing with girl issues.
Too funny. yeah, sometimes the best thing to do is just to let go, no matter how badly you want the opposite.
Why that leads us to “Everyone knows, that the world is full of stupid people.. I got the pistol so out with the pesos, yeah that seems fair” .. Guess it’s stupid how the game is played.. or maybe we just think the girl is stupid that doesn’t feel the same way we do.
I say, Fuck It. :)
I, too, like many others, wanted the lyrics to this song. The alternative rock station that went under in favor of Jam music a few years ago, is back up and running again.
I hope things worked out for you. I’m sure they did.
I was just dumped, wrote a goodbye email, checked facebook, and my cousin quoted some of the lyrics. Googled it, came to this site, thought how strange, realized it was from that song, and found it on YouTube. I love the internet ;)
Wow,,found this just like all the rest,,thanks for the post..and all i can add is a line fron a new song,,"God is great,beer is good,,,and people are crazy",,take care bro
I too would like to thank you for having this blog up still after all these yrs it has helped yet another person find the name of this cool song :)
and 5 years after this post I’m thanking you for posting the lyrics to this song so I could find it again.
And I hope that by now everything is going well for you.
Thank you, and take care.
I too found this song after hearing it on the radio for the “who knows how many’th time” and not fully knowing the lyrics hence deciding to get educated!)
Guess the question I’d ask to whoever sees this in the future “how old were you when this came out?”
I was somewhere in my teens, but don’t know exactly when it came out so can’t say for now.
Thanks and God bless you and all that see this,
Jesse V.
