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I found out today an old friend of mine had a heart attack while she was working late and is in a coma. It doesn't look very good. I guess it hit really hard for a couple reasons. First, she just turned 30. That's only about a year older than me. That's pretty freaking young for something like this to happen. I guess we all have these moments in our lives when we all REALLY realize our own mortality and I think I'm having mine right now. The second reason is that she's been on my mind lately because Janelle dug out some of her old home movies to burn to DVD and we've been watching them. It's been fun watching all of us ten years ago. I haven't seen her in a while and that just kind of stings. There's still a chance that she could pull through this, I know, but I'm preparing myself for the worst. How do you really do that though? I have no idea.
It’s a hard time in life, when friends start to have health issues. Last year, a high school friend of mine passed away and it was a shock to me because it was the first person from our group of friends to die, and by medical complications. I think he was 29.
And it’s a hard month for me, too. Although they’re not at young, I found out about two coworkers of mine having cancer. One of them was like my mom when I worked in the library. I’m not sure I’d even be able to last through the funeral if she died. I’ve already lost one coworker to cancer, and I cried it up a lot at her service.
You’re right, though. We can’t really prepare yourself well. I wonder if one day we’ll be old and wise and have some great perspective of how it’s all part of the natural order of things, and while we miss the people, we can still look back at our memories of them and smile. But for now, it’s hard, especially because we’re just having these experiences for the first time.
That sucks man. Adding you (and her) to my prayer list right now.